life

well there is a lot to say since i haven't written anything for a long time...
i've been really busy lately. English 102 is kicking my butt and i'm pretty sure that i'm gonna get a 'C'. it's all good though as long as i pass. The musical that i was given the opportunity to direct was the last 2 weekends (along with vanessa's wedding). The show went really well and i was so incredibly grateful that i came back to school here. no where else in the world would have let me get to be a director and it was really neat to get that chance and learn a lot more. it helped nurish my love for theatre. i'll have to post some of the pictures we took at the after party where we burned the cow.

so i was thinking on sunday (sorry this is really random and has nothing to do with anything else i've said) but i was thinking...I'm still reaping the not so great rewards of having the wrong friends early in high school. i saw some people who had been some of my best friends and I saw how unhappy they were. It made my heart hurt so bad. i then began to think of all the people that i love who once meant so much to me and as i started to think about where there life was going and how they were going to turn out and it made me so sad. It still hurts to see people that i love making bad choices and i chose the wrong people to love. that sounds bad but if i had only cared about the right people i would be happy now in seeing them make good decisions. i thought i was helping these people when i was really only hurting myself. but i did build relationships and it sucks to see that there is nothing i can do to make my old friends want what is best. anyways....just one more consequence to making bad choices...don't do it...if this were the only consequence, it still wouldn't be worth it. <3