so uhm. for some reason today has been very thoughtful. i have a couple minutes before i have to go to institute so i figured i'd write down some of the stuff i've been thinking about. so i got asked today what i wanted out of life. i was like I want a family. i was then ask "no i mean like professionally" and i was like "well i'm going in to elementary education so i'll probably teach school and i'll love it, but i chose that because it will help me to be able to teach my future children." that was followed with "So all you want is your family?" and i was like " well i want a good family. i want to be a good enough parent that my kids will know how to make good choices even when i'm not around." i was then asked if that was what i wanted because my mom passed away. i was puzzled that that was the response. i said "no. it's because that is what life is about."

i think it's interesting that you can want something your whole life and then get to where you actually can study that and realize that's not really what you wanted afterall. i think one of the biggest things i've learned from being at EAC and from all the wonderful people here is that life is about preparing the earth for the second coming, not about seeing how much you personally can achieve. i feel like i've changed so much in the last couple months just because priorities are being realized. maybe it's just part of growing up and that everyone at 18 or 19 discovers that life isn't about what they thought it was. that it is about other people and not you. idk. it's been an interesting day......