holy moly! i'm not sure i really believe i'm here. everyone once in a while i step back and am like "WOE BETSY" it's really strange. The other day at school i courageously took my eyes off the sidewalk and looked at the environment i was in and it was a little too much. I swore to try again later, before i looked back at the sidewalk. I'm happy though. Happier than i've been in a year and a half. Crazy huh? i never thought that at the loneliest point in my life i'd feel less lonely than i was at home surrounded by my friends. it's been real eye opening. i've never felt so --on the outside?-- in my life. it's like i'm looking down on my life, and my past and analyzing the things i've done and the things i'm doing, and life all of a sudden makes sense again. i am blown away by how blind i've really really been. well...welcome to my blog!
