well uh, i'm moving home in 5 days. crazy huh? but my new thought about that, is who says that that's home? i mean i'll be going home to my family, but still i've met so many amazing people here, that have become a part of my "home." never before in my life had i been even away from st. david without at least a sibling there as a crutch, and since i've been here, i've learned so much about people, and how amazing they really are.
so leaving is going to be rough. not that leaving st. david wasn't, but that all felt very temporary, and i felt like leaving there was finding a new me, and it was exciting and scary all at the same time. now it's like i've found the me that i'd set out for, but a peice of that will be left here. i hated who i was in st. david, and i love who i am here, so how can i take all the good and move it to the setting of the bad? i mean i am going to hang with a different crowd.
mostly i'm just venting my thoughts here, so sorry. but leaving here is definately worse than leave AZ was
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Thursday, June 4, 2009
the AMAZING power of prayer
it'll never cease to amaze me how amazing and versitile prayer is. here's just a little testimony builder story...
today when i got to my 4th hour class my teacher decided that he was going to be nice and instead of giving us a test, he let us watch a movie. well i wasn't paying attention to the film at first because i was talking, but once everyone settled down i realized that the movie had to be rated R because it had a lot of profanity. well i didn't want to make a scene and i knew we weren't being tested on it or anything so i got my MP3 player out so that i could just not watch the movie. well when i looked at the screen i realized that i had forgotten to charge my MP3 player last night :O oh no! there was like a very minute green part of the battery left showing and i knew that meant taht it would last about 10 minutes and we had 30 minutes left of the class. well i said a little tiny prayer in my head about not wanting to have to watch the movie but that i didn't want to have to embarass myself and inturrupt the class just to inform everyone that i dont watch R movies.
i sat and stared at my back pack listening to the Red Hot Chili Peppers because i was afraid to change the song because i thought it might use more battery up. well totally miraculously i looked at the clock and noticed that it was time to go. the bell rang, and as soon as i stepped out of the classroom my music went of. i took my MP3 player out of my pocket and it was dead.
heavenly father loves me, just the same as he loves anyone else. i'm so incredibly grateful to know the things i know and have the standards i have
today when i got to my 4th hour class my teacher decided that he was going to be nice and instead of giving us a test, he let us watch a movie. well i wasn't paying attention to the film at first because i was talking, but once everyone settled down i realized that the movie had to be rated R because it had a lot of profanity. well i didn't want to make a scene and i knew we weren't being tested on it or anything so i got my MP3 player out so that i could just not watch the movie. well when i looked at the screen i realized that i had forgotten to charge my MP3 player last night :O oh no! there was like a very minute green part of the battery left showing and i knew that meant taht it would last about 10 minutes and we had 30 minutes left of the class. well i said a little tiny prayer in my head about not wanting to have to watch the movie but that i didn't want to have to embarass myself and inturrupt the class just to inform everyone that i dont watch R movies.
i sat and stared at my back pack listening to the Red Hot Chili Peppers because i was afraid to change the song because i thought it might use more battery up. well totally miraculously i looked at the clock and noticed that it was time to go. the bell rang, and as soon as i stepped out of the classroom my music went of. i took my MP3 player out of my pocket and it was dead.
heavenly father loves me, just the same as he loves anyone else. i'm so incredibly grateful to know the things i know and have the standards i have
Saturday, May 30, 2009
so i think that i'm finally making some headway on what i'm going to do with my life. this means though that i probably won't be going to AZ this weekend and of course that sucks, but i'll probably move back to zona in like 4 weeks. that's kind of scary, but i won' t really be 'living' in st. david, just staying there for a little while until i can move up to EA for the fall semester, but we'll see what works out. anyways that's a little update...much love xoxoxo
Monday, May 25, 2009
weekend!
it's not my fault i get bored. i have a feeling now that i have camille's old digital camera there will be many more random videos!!!!
i went to the city walk at universal studios this weekend with some of the girls from my seminary class and it was super fun. here's some pic plus some random ones i took of myself. i know i get camera happy but whateves...
this is my cancer patient pic. it looks like i have no hair!!!!
i didn't wanna rotate these ones...and you can see my forhead wrinkles that my dad makes fun of
forhead wrinkles again. well sixhead wrinkles is what stinky ross would've called them
this was a barbie store taht i thought was awesome!!!
this is jen not wanting a picture. she's one of the greatest people i've met here
freak candy store called "it's sugar"
this is julie with katie behind her. katie is jen's little sister...julie is in our seminary class too
and this.... this is me with the halo guy...it's true love!
Friday, May 22, 2009
how white is WHITE?!?!?!?
okay so here's some "i'm really white" experiences....
first of you have to understand that 85% of my school is latino, and then they bus people in from chinatown and koreatown and then there is a percentage of black, so white is definately the minority. it doesn't bother me, but it makes for some really funny experiences.
first off is the most embarrassing one. prom. well ya see, uhm, being raised in st. david sometimes it's assumed that you understand things that you don't. so in the car with my date and his mom on the way to prom they asked me what it was like living close to the border. well uhmmm...i told them some experiences, and while doing so i used a term that i didn't exactly know was bad. the day after prom, i went to rachelle and asked "uhm, rachelle...how derogatory of a term is'wet-back?'" yea you can laugh at me if you want, but i hadn't realized that that was even mean. well i knew it wasn't nice, but i didn't think it was offensive. well yea. so my prom date who actually happens to be mexican probably thought i was super rude. no wonder i don't talk to him;)
today while in history i was talking to this kid who is half chinese, half jamaican. well he asked me if i liked the movie that we were watching and i told him that i hadn't really actually watched much of it, and he JOKINGLY responded "it's because it's about a black guy huh?" well i was joking back and said "of course, because you know that i hate black people." just as i said that i looked up and a tall black kid sitting two desks in front of me that doesn't know me, turned around and raised his eye brows. i quickly explained that i was joking and my friend backed me up, thankfully.
there's more but i don't have time... it's so fun and interesting to live in a more diverse place. i'm definately learning a lot.!
first of you have to understand that 85% of my school is latino, and then they bus people in from chinatown and koreatown and then there is a percentage of black, so white is definately the minority. it doesn't bother me, but it makes for some really funny experiences.
first off is the most embarrassing one. prom. well ya see, uhm, being raised in st. david sometimes it's assumed that you understand things that you don't. so in the car with my date and his mom on the way to prom they asked me what it was like living close to the border. well uhmmm...i told them some experiences, and while doing so i used a term that i didn't exactly know was bad. the day after prom, i went to rachelle and asked "uhm, rachelle...how derogatory of a term is'wet-back?'" yea you can laugh at me if you want, but i hadn't realized that that was even mean. well i knew it wasn't nice, but i didn't think it was offensive. well yea. so my prom date who actually happens to be mexican probably thought i was super rude. no wonder i don't talk to him;)
today while in history i was talking to this kid who is half chinese, half jamaican. well he asked me if i liked the movie that we were watching and i told him that i hadn't really actually watched much of it, and he JOKINGLY responded "it's because it's about a black guy huh?" well i was joking back and said "of course, because you know that i hate black people." just as i said that i looked up and a tall black kid sitting two desks in front of me that doesn't know me, turned around and raised his eye brows. i quickly explained that i was joking and my friend backed me up, thankfully.
there's more but i don't have time... it's so fun and interesting to live in a more diverse place. i'm definately learning a lot.!
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
mormon PROM pix
okay so here's the pictures that heather took before we left for prom. this black and white one is my favorite. and i've decided that if no one else things michael is cute, that's okay because i still think he is. anyways here's pics. maybe there'll be more later if i ever get the guts to give michael my email address. i think i'm just intimidated by him because well i don't really know. i don't like "like" him, it's just awkward. anyways....
(red eye changed to black eye LOL)
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